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Saturday, December 21, 2002
 
My early new year's resolution: I'm going to run every morning. I'm going to start running here around the neighborhood so that when I get back to Berkeley, I'll be in the habit of running. haha ... this'll probably last like a week at most.

-bj

 
nobody likes me
everybody hates me
guess i'll go eat worms
long, thin, slimy ones
short, fat, juicy ones
itsy-bitsy, fuzzy-wuzzy worms
down goes the first one
down goes the second one
oh how they wiggle and squirm
long, thin, slimy ones
short, fat, juicy ones
itsy-bitsy, fuzzy-wuzzy worms

-bj

Friday, December 20, 2002
 
i'm bored. i'm tired of winter break. bring on the school ... on second thought, maybe not. i went shopping today and bought some green pants for myself. :-) haha ... ummm ... yeah. h2o was HUGE today. so many people were back from school. yay. i like h2o. it's cool. the sfsu/berk group WON the skit contest with the story of Zhou Sun and My Yao. haha ... uhm. yeah. don't ask.

-bj

Thursday, December 19, 2002
 
i've just realized that i'm a sucker for encouragement ... i find myself keeping e-mails from friends which i find encouraging (i.e., telling me what a great guy i am ... haha) or re-reading nice comments from teachers on my papers. i relish when people give me an encouraging pat on the back. i always think about the nice things people say to me and about me. haha. i'm pathetic. btw, did you know that people need on average 4 physical touches a day? it's true ... go on, go out there and encourage someone. send someone an e-mail, or give someone a pat-on-the-back. sometimes you never know how much it helps or how encouraging that can be. i know first-hand.

-bj

 
hmmm ... ever realize how stupid the stuff of life is? i mean, i was just sitting here at my computer, glad that the first semester is over, when i realized that school and so many things that i do in everyday life is so temporal, so fleeting, and so important. even when considering my conversations with my friends, i just realize how often we talk about trivial stuff. what about what's really important in life? isn't life more than eating and drinking, school and play? i'm constantly reminded by the words of Steven Curtis Chapman. "There's more to this life (than) living and dying ... more than just trying to make it through the night ..." God sent His only son to die for us. Are we living in a way that reflects this? I'm not saying that trivialities don't have their place ... but we need to have God's perspective on life and on the world. We truly are blessed and should live accordingly. =0)

-bj

 
HOME SWEET HOME

hmmm ... it's nice being home even though i miss everyone at school ... i'm already bored, though. hmmm ... i think i'll be done by the first week of finals next semester. i have exam groups 1, 4, 6, and 7. YIKES ... hardcore.

-bj

Wednesday, December 18, 2002
 
Sad ... no one really to say goodbye to 'cuz everyone was out. very depressing.

I MISS EVERYONE ALREADY!

I miss michael, stephen, michael smith, kenny, tina, calista, sarah, kirby, andrew, oleg, joel, kevin, chi, carise, jocelyn, victor, tiffany, thomas, jay, mary lou, brian, twin, joe ... and everyone else i normally see ...

-bj

 
Something my buddy Stephen reminded me of yesterday:

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God and HIs righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."

We need to prioritize our lives so that Christ has first place. If we focus on God and want what He wants for us, He will give us all we desire.

-bj

 
Wow ... the semester is officially over ... i must say it's been fun, especially having great friends, roomies, and suitemates to share it with. I must say i have the greatest roomies in the world ... sorry they can't really say the same 'cuz they have to put up with me ... :-( maybe we can get an apartment together or something ... :-) haha ... parties every night ...

thanks everyone who prayed for my finals. by God's grace i was able to survive. i can't say that i did well, but i survived. praise God!

-bj

 
These lyrics are so good they deserve to be posted twice.

"We stutter and we stammer 'til you say us.
A symphony of chaos 'til you play us
Phrases on the pages of unknown, 'til you write us into poetry and prose.

We are kept and we are captive 'til you free us
Vaguely unimagined 'til you dream us
Aimlessly unguided 'til you lead us home

By your voice do we speak
By your strength no longer weak
We are no longer weak

By your wounds we are healed
By your wounds we are healed

Passed over and passed by until you claim us
Orphaned and abandoned 'til you name us
Hidden and disclosed 'til you expose our hearts

And by your death we live
It is by your gift that we might give
That we might give

What kind of love
Would take your shame
And spill his love for you
And heal us by His wounds."

(Nicole Nordeman's "Healed")

(*sigh*) ... I love these lyrics ...

-bj

Tuesday, December 17, 2002
 
Tomorrow we'll discover
What our God in heaven has in store
One more dawn
One more day
One day more

(until i'm free ...)

-bj

 
Who would have thought it would be hard to SPEND $140? Michael and I made three trips down to the GBC and only spent like $100 in drinks. Haha ... well, we have lots of drinks now ... like 24 one-liters of soda, 24 bottles of water and juice galore ... :-( haha ... i think i'm gonna be sick ... i've been drinking too much.

-bj

 
Age of Mythology is an awesome game!

I think I made my aim profile test too hard ... no one's scored above 50% ... :-D

-bj

Monday, December 16, 2002
 
I found this entry in my devotional to be very thought-provoking.

"Test this question: What if God's only gift to you were his grace to save you. Would you be content? You beg him to save the life of your child. You plead with him to keep your business afloat. You implore him to remove the cancer from your body. What if his answer is, "My grace is enough." Would you be content?

You see, from heaven's perspective, grace is enough. If God did nothing more than save us from hell, could anyone complain? ... Having been given eternal life, dare we grumble at an aching body? Having been given heavenly riches, dare we bemoan earthly poverty? ...

If you have eyes to read these words, hands to hold this book, the means to own this volume, he has already given you grace upon grace.

(From Max Lucado's "Grace for the Moment")

-bj

 
Wow ... that was fun ... sf in the rain ... :-) naw, it was cool. my suite went to cheescake factory for calista's birthday. YAY! what fun! haha ... wow, it's late ... still gotta study cs ... i'll get to that later ... (*yawn*)

-bj