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Saturday, October 05, 2002
(oops ... sorry for the double post that was just here ...) here's a new one ... "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ ..." I think I know why some people have a bad impression of Christians and Christianity. As I was taking BART home on Friday, this dude with a bicycle starts lecturing the whole BART train. He says "Man! How come none of you talk to each other. I remember when the BART trains first started, everyone would talk to one another; everyone loved one another. Now everyone is just concerned about their own business. What's wrong with you people." Everyone ignored him so he kept talking. Finally this black guy asked the man to please be quiet. They got into a heated verbal argument. The dude with the bicycle said "I don't have to be quiet because I have the love of JESUS in my HEART." I was going to slap myself in the face ... or slap him. I was thinking, "Oh please don't associate yourself with Christianity ... You're not a very good testimony." ... So the dude with the bike starts cussing and trying to tell the black guy how he has God's forgiveness and stuff ... I was scared that the two of them would get into a fist fight. I guess that this incident just reminded me that not being ashamed of the gospel doesn't mean trying to cram the gospel down other people's throats. There's a right way and a wrong way of presenting the good news ... -bj 
Friday, October 04, 2002
I have discovered that half of the people in my math discussion are arrogant, and the other half are just plain stupid. Luckily for me, I'm both. -bj
Get Up I'm not afraid to fall It means I've climbed up high To fall is not to fail You fail when you don't try Not afraid to fall I might just learn to fly And I will spread These wings of mine If I get up I might fall back down again So let's get up, c'mon If I get up I might fall back down again We get up anyway If I get up I might fall back down again So let's get up, c'mon If I get up I might fall back down again And I might fall back down again And we'll just jump and see Even if it's the thirtieth time And we'll just jump and see if we can fly I'm not afraid to fall I've fallen many times They laughed when I fell down But I have dared to climb Not afraid to fall I know I'll fall again But I can win this In the end -bj
Thursday, October 03, 2002
The Long Way Home Ever feel like you're taking the long way home? Sometimes I just feel like I've run so far from God ... pushed Him away so many times. I mean, I know that ultimately I'll be in heaven, but it just seems that I'm taking the long road back home. It makes me think of the prodigal son. What must the prodigal son have been thinking on the long road back home? It seems like so often God is telling me to come to Him, but I just run in the opposite direction. And when I finally do turn around, the road back home is so long. I'm so thankful, though, that God allows us to make mistakes, and that He allows us to keep running home after we've run so far from Him. -bj
Hmmmm ... i'll die a bitter old man -bj
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
Let That Be Enough I wish I had what I needed To be on my own 'Cause I feel so defeated And I'm feeling alone And it all seems so helpless And I have no plans I'm a plane in the sunset With no where to land And all I see it could never Make me happy And all my sand castles Spend their time collapsing Let me know that You hear me Let me know Your touch Let me know that You love me And let that be enough ******************************************** totally. -bj
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
I BEG TO DIFFER! -bj
ERK? -bj
how do they come up with this stuff??? -bj
ddfbjlee (2:41:12 PM): ACK ddfbjlee (2:41:15 PM): your plants have died Kiwipegasus (2:41:17 PM): hey ddfbjlee (2:41:17 PM): RIP ddfbjlee (2:41:20 PM): :-) Kiwipegasus (2:41:21 PM): gasp!!! Kiwipegasus (2:41:25 PM): are you kidding me??? ddfbjlee (2:41:32 PM): buh bye Kiwipegasus (2:41:38 PM): bryan!!! Kiwipegasus (2:41:43 PM): did you kill them??? Kiwipegasus (2:41:52 PM): are you kidding me??? Kiwipegasus (2:41:55 PM): bryan, answer me Kiwipegasus (2:42:00 PM): come back, bryan! Kiwipegasus (2:42:07 PM): are my plants really dead? hah hah ... i couldn't stop laughing!!! -bj
A quote from Socrates: "It follows from our previous agreements, first, that the best men must have sex with the best women as frequently as possible, while the opposite is true of the most inferior men and women, and second, that if our herd is to be of the highest possible quality, the former's offspring must be reared but not the latter's." (Plato's Republic, Book V, 459d) ERK? (eyebrows raised in confusion.) -bj
"Mama, may I have a cookie?" "No, dear, it's almost dinner time." "But mama! I'm starving!" "Then you may have a carrot." "A carrot?" "Yes, a carrot." "But mama! I hate carrots!" "I know, sweetie. That's why you may have one." "Mama?" "Yes?" "You're mean." bah ... i have these conversations in my head ... :-) -bj
From now on, my alter ego (or alter-sex) name will be Bryecia. I wanna be cool just like my lab partner, Jay. When he's in a gay mood, he tells ppl to call him Jaynecia! hah hah ... we'd make a cute couple. lol. Bryecia and Jaynecia. Oh yeah, btw, here's a clip from his aim profile (it was in a gay pink background with baby blue font): Pretty In Pink my covers are fluffy and the color of my font, and i got a matching pillow that's the color of the background with a floral print on the back. my sister said "EW they're synthetic" but they feel SO soft au naturale. Legally Blonde is the best movie ever simply because of its pink to other color ratio. My toothbrush, pillow, 2 shirts, and loofah are pink. Jay Yee: liberating pink for straight men since 2000. hah hah. he's the coolest. Bryecia and Jaynecia - men of the next millenium. -bj
Monday, September 30, 2002
YAY! Round 1 of midterms are over and done with! Thanks everyone for your prayers. They meant A LOT to me! (btw, I didn't do too well, but PRAISE GOD ... He helped me through this) ... I shall return to my same old retardo posts to this blog later this week. hah hah. -bj
Growth is a process ... I just rededicated my life to Christ about ten minutes ago, and I already am reverting back to my old habits. I'm still getting mad at people, and I'm still trusting in my own abilities rather than depending on God. I guess I've learned that someone cannot just shoot up six inches overnight. Growth is a step-by-step process. -bj
The Call of God Sometimes it's hard for me to know what God's will for my life is. In fact, I don't think I know that even now. But I've learned that I need to just stop contemplating all of the different roads I could take, and start just listening for God's still, small voice. God may speak in a huge thunderclap, or He may just speak in a whisper. Either way, I need to tune myself to listen to His voice. Ultimately, God's will for each and everyone of our lives is to become more Christ-like. After getting closer to the heart of God - if our hearts are in sync with God's - then we will be able to know God's will for our lives beyond a shadow of a doubt. It is my honest, heartfelt prayer that my time here at Berkeley is a time of immense spiritual growth. I pray that I grow closer to the heart of God, become more Christ-like, and figure out God's will for me along the way. I thank many of you stronger Christians out there for just your examples. You all have been an encouragement to me to get my act together and to become a stronger Christian. Your desires to grow closer to God have urged me to do the same. Please pray for me as I shall do the same for you. -bj (thanks sl. your encouragement and example have touched me more than you realize. i really look up to you. pls look out for me and try to keep my heart pure. thx mf, vl, & people in my small group Bible study ... your prayers have greatly helped. please continue to pray for me as I have just re-dedicated my life to Christ.)
Sunday, September 29, 2002
Well, I just got the results of my CS midterm. I failed. (Seriously, I'm not just saying this in an attempt of "fake modesty" and I'm not just saying this 'cuz I got a 'c' or something ... I actually failed.) I thought I'd be more upset ... I just have to try a lot harder next time. Will everyone please pray for God to keep me focused. Please pray that God will show me if this major is really right for me. Please pray that I don't get too discouraged and that I continue just working hard and continue trying my best. I guess that's the best I can do. Thanks everyone. -bj
I often wonder if I made a wrong choice coming to Berkeley. Sometimes I wonder why God meant for me to come here, or if I decided to come here based on my own desires. I think I've figured out why I'm here, though. I can sum it up in one word - growth. Here at Berkeley I'm experiencing growth, or I hope to be experiencing growth. Intelectually Berkeley will challenge me to grow by leaps and bounds. Physically I've become slightly skinnier. YAY! :-) Personally I've been able to talk to more people and grow as a person. Had I not been living on campus here at Berkeley, I would not have experienced growth. Most importantly, however, if I were not living on campus at Berkeley, I would not be experiencing spiritual growth. I'm sure that God has placed my friends and roommates here at Berkeley with me to challenge me to grow spiritually. My roommates, especially, are challenging me to be a more godly person. The CCS people that I have Bible studies with also challenge me to be a better Christian. So for all the stresses that Berkeley brings, I hope to be a better person after college and a better Christian. I thank God for my roommate who's just there to listen when I'm struggling emotionally or spiritually. I thank God for the CCSers who have Bible studies with me and encourage me to be a good testimony to the unbelievers on campus. And I thank God for placing me here at Berkeley, for a reason. -bj
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